The Northern 📍

  Stuck.      Again and again, the cycle continues. Days turn into weeks, weeks into years. Over and over again, I find myself trapped within a system which does not care. A never-ending loop of the same process, running in circles.      Some say that the spiral is more of an ascension than everything else. That going around is circles, when zoomed out, shows progress. Perhaps so. However, it is hard to know when you’re caught within it. When you’re busy spinning around and around, sliding down in circles. The never-ending charade of motion sickness, surrounding you like bees. The constant buzzing of the winged-demons, who surround you waiting for the opportune moment to strike.        Capitalism exhausts me. At least, the idea of it. The practice, perhaps not. At least, not in the sense that I am fully aware of what the options are, once we abandon the current system. That the alternatives to said system are likely to result in dea...

  More dreams of Love.      More dreams of being insanely with someone, only to wake up and find that it’s gone. To wake up and realize that I am back to my hell of a life, with nobody there by my side.      You’d think after a while, you’d get used to it. The long days, longer nights. The never-ending grind of making it thru while the clock ticks life away. But the truth is, you struggle. You do your best simply to survive. Nothing else can describe it.        I believe it was Dostoevsky who said something about being unable to love is being in hell. Well, Fyodor, we’ve made it. If only he had left the instructions on how to get out while he was at it. I’ve reached a dead-end, and there’s simply no escaping it. Every step that I take, keeps me locked into the prison which I currently find myself in. Seriously, there is no way Hell can be any worse than this.        Life is draining. That much, I know for sure. E...

  It’s raining outside.      Today is one of those days, where everything seems gloomy. No sun, all clouds and a ton of rain. Normally, I’d enjoy this kind of weather. Stay inside, grab a coffee and enjoy the tranquility. Today, however, I can’t help but feel the gloom outside reflecting how I feel within.      Things are bad. Everywhere, all over the world. It’s a non-stop bombardment of negative news and media, 24/7. My situation is becoming more and more hopeless, and I find it difficult to find the light. The irony, I suppose, is that I am meant to stand tall regardless. I am meant to not be afraid of the darkness, ignore the evil, and put my head down and work. Something inside of me is struggling with the constant battle between good and evil, over and over again.        Spiritual Warfare is an exhausting battle. Make no mistake- that is exactly what is going on. We are being attacked on all fronts, by an invisible enemy. The ...

  What an interview.      Like everybody else who’s been following, some things help shape the culture for the better. Sometimes, things which come forth are meant to be seen by the entire world, to better help understand what is really going on. I feel somewhat relaxed and at ease after watching a 2 hour interview halfway across the world. Go figure. Something about it had made me realize that perhaps we’re all gonna make it, after all.      History is such a fascinating subject. What truly stands out to me about it all, is the detail. The events which have taken place in order for us humans to get to where we are today, are astounding. So much has happened, and so much has had to go right, just to get to where we are. Which means we should all feel extremely fortunate and grateful that we get to live the lives we currently do, regardless of how things are going personally. We are literally the product of thousands of years. Years, of blood, sweat and...