The Northern 📍

  Stuck.      Again and again, the cycle continues. Days turn into weeks, weeks into years. Over and over again, I find myself trapped within a system which does not care. A never-ending loop of the same process, running in circles.      Some say that the spiral is more of an ascension than everything else. That going around is circles, when zoomed out, shows progress. Perhaps so. However, it is hard to know when you’re caught within it. When you’re busy spinning around and around, sliding down in circles. The never-ending charade of motion sickness, surrounding you like bees. The constant buzzing of the winged-demons, who surround you waiting for the opportune moment to strike.        Capitalism exhausts me. At least, the idea of it. The practice, perhaps not. At least, not in the sense that I am fully aware of what the options are, once we abandon the current system. That the alternatives to said system are likely to result in dea...

  Dreams & Nightmares!      At what point do your dreams begin to evolve into nightmares? At what point do you finally throw in the towel, and say that this is too much to bear?      It’s been years since I’ve seen her face, yet she visits me every single night in my dreams. Every single night, where I finally get to be with her. The only single point in time, where her & I are together and happy again.      I know, I know- quit the sob story. Grow up and get over it. Well I did. Or at least, I thought I did. I thought I had finally packed my baggage and moved on. I thought I had finally found peace, and was wiling to look forward to something else instead. Yet every single time that I convince myself the truth- she comes right back again. She creeps into my subconscious, haunting me in the void.        So I once again ask- at what point do dreams become nightmares? At what point, does one sit down and accept ...

  This Is My Last Resort.      Life is difficult. Things have been more challenging now than ever before. I don’t know if it’s the same feeling for everybody, or if I’m all alone in this journey.      Things have not been the same for some time now. The highs and lows have become absolute mountains and valleys. The tallest peaks, followed by the lowest dives. Things have become completely unstable, and I no longer know where to turn.      The battle for my soul continues to rage on, as I feel myself slowly slipping. Slowly, being torn apart from the inside, leaving me with nowhere to hide. The ground from which I find myself living under is slowly shrinking away, to the point where I no longer have anywhere to turn. I do not know how much longer I can continue down this path, without help from something or someone. The challenges I currently find myself in are all-consuming, leading me towards the end of my road.      ...

  It’s raining outside.      Today is one of those days, where everything seems gloomy. No sun, all clouds and a ton of rain. Normally, I’d enjoy this kind of weather. Stay inside, grab a coffee and enjoy the tranquility. Today, however, I can’t help but feel the gloom outside reflecting how I feel within.      Things are bad. Everywhere, all over the world. It’s a non-stop bombardment of negative news and media, 24/7. My situation is becoming more and more hopeless, and I find it difficult to find the light. The irony, I suppose, is that I am meant to stand tall regardless. I am meant to not be afraid of the darkness, ignore the evil, and put my head down and work. Something inside of me is struggling with the constant battle between good and evil, over and over again.        Spiritual Warfare is an exhausting battle. Make no mistake- that is exactly what is going on. We are being attacked on all fronts, by an invisible enemy. The ...