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 I Am Afraid.

    It pains me to say those words. It pains me to sit here, and admit something I’ve known deep down inside, for some time now. It pains me to finally open up and feel what it is that I’ve been trying to hide for so long now. The fear consumes me, as it slowly spreads across my chest. The uneasy feeling of being trapped, like a rat in a cage, rolls over my every senses. The confirmation of what I’ve known, for many, many weeks now. I am afraid.

    Things have changed, drastically. I suppose that is the way of the world. Only a fool expects things to remain the same. Planning life, as if the world does not constantly turn and evolve into whatever it is we are becoming. No, I understand that part. I understand that things must evolve, in order to become whatever it is we are building to be. However, what had happened in the recent years, is too much to handle. What has become evident, is something out of a dark nightmare. What we are currently experiencing, is something I have never thought possible before.

    I always thought I was brave. I thought I was at least willing to stand up, and do what was right. To be able to stand in the face of evil, and go against whatever it is we find ourselves surrounded by. Now, however, I’m not so sure. Now, I find myself trapped within a society which is no longer thinking. A society, that no longer cares about another. A dark night, where the people who reside within in do not seem to care the direction we are headed under. The reality is, they’ve all lost their minds. They’ve all been brainwashed, to the point where they no longer have the ability to think for themselves. That scares me like nothing I’ve ever experienced before.

    Fear is the mind killer. That much, I am aware. Fear makes you live a life of cowardice, where one is afraid to ever move and makes no moves at all. Fear is a silent killer, which reeks depression and chaos around ones life, slowly sucking the soul out of him. It sends a man to his grave early, creating nothing more than a skeleton corpse of what they used to be. I cannot live like that. No man with a sense of honour can. The very thought of no longer being free, is something worth dying for.

    The unknowingness of it all is what truly keeps me afraid. The inability to understand when the opportune moment is to attack, when we are needed to stand up- that is what scares me. We are living in a long, drawn-out nightmare, where every single day may be our last. The constant flow of information, being fed to us through cryptic messages and backwards accounts. The lies, deceit, the constant misguidance by those who are controlling the information. We truly are living in an age, where nobody is on the same page. 

    Divide and conquer. A tactic as old as time itself. Every single ruler or nation has used this tactic since the dawn of time. Since the dawn of war and all which men find themselves surrounded by. The ability to fight and create change, in hopes of building a better world. However, I have yet to ever experience a system which turns upon its own people. A government which seeks to actively kill and destroy its own land. To arrest and murder its own people. To divide and conquer the masses, so that they may remain in charge. 

    I suppose I am showing my age with said statement. Showing the green around my gills. Many such attacks from governments and rulers have been recorded throughout history. Many events in the world have left us in a state of fear. And many of these attacks have resulted is tremendous loss of life. All of these steps by a tyrannical government have resulted in the complete wipe and annihilation of certain groups within the margin. The complete and utter destruction of those they are meant to serve. The defeat of all parties which stand in their way from complete governance. I currently find myself in that party. Out of all the history books and lessons which have occurred around the world- it is finally my time to experience the horrors.

    Waiting for the first strike is the hardest. The longest battle, staying sharp within ones mind. The desire to simply slip away, and become nothing more than a number. To escape the pain in which we live in, in exchange for a quieter life. That is the hardest. The most difficult battle of all, staying prepared and ready. Staying alert and on your toes. To pick up your own life, and continue with it, moving forward as if nothing has changed at all. Yet, to know the truth. To know that everything had changed, fully completely.

    We must remain strong. We must be willing to continue pushing forward. We must be ready for whatever horrible measures these tyrannical rulers have prepared for us. We must stay alert, and build a community with a family. A family, which we will be able to stand tall with and be prepared for whatever it is they have lined up. There is no easy way out of this mess. We will not receive a red carpet and straight line for us to simply escape it all. We must be prepared for all forces, big and small, who simply move forward with little to no regards.

We must remain strong, as the darkness continues to march over us all-

For the night is dark, and full of terrors.

        Glory Be,

                    Amen.