Revenge of the Writer ✍🏼

 Refreshed. Recharged. Refocused.

    Sometimes taking a short break from the usual scheduled program can do wonders. Sometimes, the mind, body and soul needs a break. Not necessarily a vacation, where you do nothing at all- but simply a break from the same old, same old. To resharpen your thoughts and focus on new tasks at hand. To recalibrate your goals and understand what it is you are truly looking for. To sig deep, and refine the purpose of life once again.

    Times are challenging for everyone. Although admittedly, some are struggling more than others. This game we play called life, is rigged from the start. It’s been created so that certain individuals excel at a greater rate than others. It’s been taken over and controlled by those who wish to see their causes rise and lead the way, burying all those who are against it. It is a throne which one individual fights to claim it for themselves. And once they do, everything else falls into their arms once more. 

    Realignment is a good thing. The time used wisely to reconstruct further goals is necessary in order to better understand the purpose behind the plan. Sometimes, one sets off on a course without fully knowing where that course will take them. In fact, I would argue most of our lives are like this. We embark upon a trajectory which we do not know the end ourselves. We travel the far and unconquered road, in search of something more which waits beyond our sight. The fog which obscures our vision from the destination we so heartedly desire.

    Along the path of life, we are sure to encounter obstacles. Road bumps in the map, which slightly take us off course. Such is the way of life. The age-old saying of which that man plans, and God laughs. Make no mistake, He is laughing. We are all in the hands of His will, and nothing less. We are here to do our best with the circumstances we have been given, as we attempt to leave the world in a slightly better place than we have found it. We attempt to create something which will help us last through the dark ages, and bring us one step closer to consciousness. 

    I do not know where the path ahead will take me. I no longer can see the route of where I wish to be. And that’s okay for the moment, I believe. That’s okay, that I’m willing to trust the sea to guide me towards whatever it is I wish to seek. For whatever I am looking for, it is also looking for me. Understanding that the water will bring me to what is meant to be found. That the path I walk must no longer be controlled, by every single square inch under my hell. Not controlled, but rather, guided. Guided, towards something greater than myself. Guided by a hand which cannot be seen, only felt.

    Knowing what we do not want is just as valuable as knowing what we do want. The contrast is important to differentiate the two worlds in which we no longer wish to balance. We no longer wish to live half in, half out. Something where we can fully immerse ourselves within, and never look back again. Something where we are finally able to wake up, fully excited to tackle the day and the challenges ahead. So much lies ahead which cannot be constructed in the dream world. So much lies ahead which requires ourselves being 100% present in the moment, to build things back better again.

    Perhaps one day, I will reflect upon the challenges which I have faced here and smile. Perhaps, I will look back and wish to return to the struggle which has helped shape who I am today. Perhaps, I will finally be able to register that all the darkness and evil in which I have conquered, was always apart of the plan.

    I do not necessarily know where these are going towards. I do not know the path which lies ahead. Yet, I am at peace with it. I am okay without knowing how the story unfolds. All I know is, I must continue to write. I must continue to empty my soul, onto these pages, with the words which ring true to my ears. I must continue the habit of writing down these thoughts, in order to build up to something greater. Perhaps my future ahead does lie in the words I write. Perhaps there is something, just around the corner, which will benefit from the effort I have been putting in. And perhaps, all of this will be for nothing, wasting away on the internet. Regardless, I will continue to push forward. I will continue to empty my head.

    The world is changing. The pace has quickened to something which can no longer be kept up by those around. The rat race has entered into overdrive, leaving most of us falling far behind. Things will break eventually. The circus will eventually come to an end. However, at the mean time, all we can do is smile. Smile, and continue to push forward against incredible odds. Continue to put our heads down, and work towards the unknown.

For eternity awaits us- just outside our line of vision.

        Glory Be,

                    Amen.