Learn to Love Again 🫀

 These Nights, We Learn to Love Again.


    These Nights. Good times all around. I finally remember what it’s like to be human. To feel. To touch. To love.


    Okay, maybe that last one was a stretch. What is love, anyways? Nothing more than a chemical imbalance. And let me tell you- I’ve got enough of those going on as we speak. 


    Life is funny. I suppose nothing happens at all, until all of a sudden, everything happens at once. Perhaps thats my sign to get back on the horse. To return to society, and become a functioning member of it once again. I must be honest, I do not hate the sound of it. I do not hate the idea of finally being free from my chains, and being able to go out and live once again. 


    Times have been tough and extremely difficult, no doubt about it. Yet, despite all of the challenges, I remain grateful. Grateful, because I was able to pass thru the eye of the storm, and emerge the other side. The eye of the storm, which I so feared about when I was younger. Perhaps that is the lesson, after all. Perhaps I was meant to experience my worse nightmares, in order to prepare me to embrace my dreams. Whatever the lesson may be- I am grateful. Rock bottom teaches you lessons that mountain tops never will.


    Looking back on everything, I will remember this period of my life forever. The difficult nights, the even more difficult days. The never-ending mental battle for my soul. I feel at peace with my adventure, ready to conclude this chapter of my life. I am finally prepared to accept that life must move on. So I will be moving on with it. I will be packing my bags, as I prepare for the next great adventure. I am grateful.


    I’m going to miss a lot of things from this chapter, I won’t lie to you. I’m going to be longing to return eventually. Despite all the difficulties and battles, despite all the mental torture and lashes- I’ll still never forget my time at home. It was these tests, these battles, which helped me grow into the individual I am today. The challenges which allowed me to blossom into the man I wish to be. The ability to accept what I cannot change, and change what I cannot accept. Overall, life has this funny way of all working out in the end, doesn’t it?


    I have no idea where I’m going to end up next. The adventure continues, and with it, so do I. That’s about all that we can do in this life. To remember to pick our heads up, and to continue moving forward. If we do fall, make sure to take a minute and rest. Observe your surroundings. Ponder on the events which let to your demise. Then, once you’ve felt every single aspect of it- cast it aside and rise. Rise from the ashes, to become the phoenix you have always been. The Supreme Cardinal, born from the flames. 


    My biggest piece of advice, for myself or anybody else who will ever read this, is that if you ever find yourself in the bottom of the trenches, remember one thing- keep going. Keep on pushing and battling thru the adversity and challenges which are presented to you. Keep on fighting against the forces which have brought you down to their level. We never truly defeat our demons, we simply learn to rise above them. There will always been forces which will seek to destroy us. However, as long as we maintain our faith and wear the armour of God, no weapon formed against us shall prosper.


    Wherever I end up, I will never forget where I came from. I will never allow the specific moments to change who I am. I will always embrace and be grateful for the experiences, and people, that I have had the opportunity to meet. Both positive and negative. Both uplifting and depressive. Yin and Yang. We cannot expect to be able to move thru life without experiences bumps and bruises. And once the smoke settles, you realize that the bumps and bruises are what make us stronger in the long run. 


    Keep going. If you’re reading this and you’re in hell, keep going. If you’re struggling at work or at school, keep going. If you feel like your life has no meaning and you are stuck in the bottom of the well- keep going. Life does not slow down for anybody.


    I feel good about this next chapter. I feel like the world holds endless possibilities ahead, and I am prepared to meet them head-on. Regardless of what happens, regardless of what is going on- I will continue to walk thru the valley of the shadow of death, and I will fear no evil.


    Life is a game of unknowns, moving throughout the shadows. Yet, despite all that, we must remember above all else to keep the faith. Keep the faith that things will all work out in the end. That no matter what you go thru, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.


I look forward to walking my path.



        Glory Be,


                    Amen.

Location: Toronto, ON, Canada

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