Ego Death 🩸

 Let it Bleed.

    Let it breathe. Either way, let it run its course and crash into the unknown. The world is on our shoulders, and it is our responsibility to pause and feel it the way it was meant to be felt.

    Overall, life keeps on ticking. Time waits for no man. If we as people, do not take the time to sit back and breathe, smell the flowers- they life will pass us by completely. We must be willing to pause and allow the noise and traffic to move past us, as we take out time to observe the scene.

    Observe, not absorb. A concept I am still working on. The difficulty of witnessing chaos, yet not allowing it to creep up into your soul. This is the key to being able to operate in this world. Ego wants what it cannot have. Ego wants to be the king of the mountain, while controlling every little single aspect underneath its thumb. To grow into a monster who is capable of extending its reach around the globe, suffocating every little thing within its grasp. Yet we must learn to let go of that feeling, that desire of power. The yearn to absorb everything, if we hope to stay our true self. 

    Sometimes, the ego drives us to do things we aren’t even aware. It will push and pull us, giving us flames and fire towards a direction which no longer serves a purpose in our life. It will want to become something we are not, in order to simply prove its dominance to the globe. The ego is a danger, dangerous thing. Yet, sometimes, danger is good. Sometimes, being dangerous can be a gift. I do not condemn the ego, no. I only ask that you keep an eye on it.

    Years have gone by, where I have allowed the ego to guide me and direct me as we journey thru this thing called life. And to be fair, it brought me far in a certain direction. It brought me thru mountain and valleys, in search of more, more, more. The only issue? It brought me the wrong way. It brought me in a direction which I did not wish to go. My ego drove me, while my soul was trapped in the back seat. The keys to the car were out of reach, as my soul could do nothing but watch as my body continued forward down the wrong path. 

    I choose to be grateful for the journey I’ve been on so far. I choose to look back and be glad that I was able to experience what I did, being who I was. I won’t lie- I definitely miss it. I miss being able to run around and be free. Now, I am a caged bird. Stuck in a trap, unable to move. I am lost and guarded behind metal bars. Nowhere out there is safe for me, as I cannot escape my own prison. You can check out any time you like, but you can never leave. The Eagles really hit that one on the head, didn’t they? 

    I still believe that one day, I will look back on this entire experience, and be grateful for the lessons it taught me as well. I will look back, and realize that while I was here, trapped in this kitchen, everything I could see in my minds-eye was making a way for me. I choose to believe that the Universe is working in my favour, as it moves rocks and mountains, in order to create a path which I am capable of walking down and remaining my true self. A tall order, no doubt. However, if God is for us, then who can be against us? Romans 8:31.

    There is still much to learn. So much to observe and acknowledge, as we all continue down this treacherous path. Understanding that is the first step towards conquering it, in my opinion. Conquering it, in the sense that we are able to fully grasp our place here in the Universe, and to rise above the noise towards our calling. Rise to the frequency of which we are meant to operate on, tackling our own goals and dreams which lay before us. The path is difficult, no question about it. The rocks, the bumps, the bruises. Everything, everywhere, all at once. Yet regardless, we move forward. We learn to understand that these mere mortal blows are nothing more than that- mortal. We learn to operate on a. frequency which is higher than anything our physical bodies can endure. To understand that there is more going on in the Universe, that what we are capable of seeing with our own two eyes.

    Awakening is a painful experience. One of the most pain experiences in my life, if I am to be transparent. Yet, we must continue forward with it regardless. We must continue to move thru the fire and the flames, in search for what lies on the other side. We need to believe that what is ahead of us is greater than what we left behind. I have come to terms with it. I have come to accept the fact that the future is brighter than the past ever will be. To understand that the soul knows the way forward, as we strive toward becoming who we are meant to be.

    Perhaps nobody will ever read this. Perhaps these words wills imply be lost in the wind, as all dust returns to the ground from which it came from. Perhaps, these notions are to be lost, like tears in the rain. Regardless, they must exist. They must come to fruition, here in the real world. Creation is a process of bringing forth the spiritual, into the physical. The act of summoning all which is located within, to exist here in the third dimension. I am content with that practice. In fact, I implore it. I implore everyone to learn and practice the skills necessary, in order to better improve their lives.

May the destruction of your own ego, lead to the creation of something beautiful.

        Glory Be,

                    Amen.